Weight loss...the bottom line

Okay, I have two excuses as to why I'm not posting every Friday. 1) my wonderful husband reads our blog (as well he should, especially when he is away!) But, when your husband only weighs 5-10 pounds more than you do and if you have a week where you gain weight which brings that weight even closer to your husbands...one tends to not want to post a weight and a picture. 2) I have been fluctuating so bad! Gain and lose and gain and lose etc... I guess I am just frustrated. I've heard it said that your body knows what weight it's comfortable with but I don't know if my brain is comfortable with the number on the scale. I know I am not comfortable with my body. I have been thinner... just last year, and was very comfortable with where I was. I guess that goes without saying though huh? Anyway, that's the update. Hopefully I can find the motivation to continue the process :)