The Davis's

Monday, December 7, 2009

Thanksgiving

For Thanksgiving everybody headed up to Fairfield, ID (you may not find it on a map :)Not only was it Thanksgiving but my nephew was being baptized that weekend. We could do it that weekend because no one in the town had been baptized in 34 years so they let my sister plan it however she wanted. She also had a friend in town that liked to take pictures so we did a whole family shoot on Friday. It was so cold! we would take a bunch of pictures...put our jackets on for a minute... then take some more.They turned out cute and although you can't see (I am such a city slicker!!!) I chose to wear flats and my feet were so wet and cold from the snow when we were done!Hahaha

Me and my sisters

Derek and I

I don't know what Matty was doing with his shoulders, but I look cute :)

cousins at the clubhouse

The sisters and the parents

Kimmy and her husband Greg

Jess with her family

The whole bunch

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Depression

Dear depression,
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I hate that YOU have taken everything thing that once piqued my interest away. I hate that I am hesitant to try new things because I know that, soon, YOU will take my interest in that away too! I hate that YOU make me so angry inside. I hate that YOU make me some sort of monster with my kids! I hate that the stupidest little thing will send me over the edge and my kids pay the price! I hate that YOU leave me with no energy or motivation! My head races with thoughts of great ideas for service, workouts, recipes, time spent with my kids, organizing, etc...and if I don't act within the millisecond, my desire is gone and I am left worse off than before! I hate that I want my kids around, but I don't want them to talk to me or ask me to do anything for or with them! I hate that YOU fill my head with thoughts of self-loathing and doubt! I hate that YOU make me not be able to sleep at night! I hate that YOU make me want to stay up as late as I can every night so I don't have to face the next depressing day! I hate that YOU compromise my relationships with friends, family, my husband...I hate that YOU make me feel like I don't have a strong relationship with my Savior! I hate that YOU make me want to take something chemically to be out of my own head! I hate that YOU have turned me into someone I don't even recognize! I hate that I know what I "should" do to get "over" this funk but YOU make it so difficult! The solution is simple really...I should get on my knees and pray, call someone, talk to my doctor, go to the temple, read my scriptures, ask for help... but YOU fill my head with a hopelessness that makes it seem easier to suffer! I hate that even though one can take a medication to help keep YOUR peaks and valleys more stable it doesn't always work and down I plunge into the bottom of the valley! I hate that people that aren't suffering from YOU don't fully understand what it does to a person...how it changes the mind, the desires, and the very core beliefs of who one thinks they are! What a horrible, awful, inconsiderate, lonely disorder YOU are! I HATE YOU! Give me back ME and leave me alone!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Back in Time...

Derek and I decided to clean and organize the garage. We have been pulling everything out, going through it, and deciding whether to keep, sell, or throw. So it should come as no surprise that I stumbled upon some old high school pictures. It was so fun to look back and laugh at stupid pictures, hair styles, clothes, boyfriends...and remember the good (and the bad times.) So for your enjoyment (or merely just to humor me) here are some Rancho pictures from 1994 and 1995 :)